Love's Turbulent Tide

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 Innocent me, fell into the world of imagination

Gradually came reality

Loving the feeling and getting relaxed

Sense of satisfaction freely moving


Echoes of love in the air

As a lover of love, I find satisfaction

Butterflies in my belly now and then 

Now comes the thought of Happy ending



Then it came, gazing at me like a fool I thought

But that my reality there

Purging that good feeling out of me

Extracting everything without pity


And it's done


Reality faced me full time 

Turning off the bright light I had

Turning me to a baby, Who cries at the first breath of life cause it's painful but it's my reality I can't run from. So I dealt with it.  

My reality it was, my happiness now.

Just as a water wave moves freely without obstruction, so is my love for you moves. I guess I'm beginning to trust this feeling but the fear in me won't let be. 

Fear of heartbreak keeps ringing, like an endless bell of remind. 

Stares at me, reminding me how broken I was before now. But I say to myself I want to try again but the painful hurt of past experience keep running Helter,shelter in my head. Dangling my head like a pendulum ball.



            I want to trust this feeling

            I want to trust this thing

            I want to trust this moment

            I want to trust you. 

 But,

Do I stand a chance to be heartbroken again 

Or, Am i trusting too early or much? 

   I guess I should put a pause and watch.

But you like him☹️

Yes, I do but does he or am just leading myself on.

At the end of the day, We are always strong to what life throws at us but for this I pray it throws the same good feeling.


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