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 I thought I knew what love was, but I was wrong. Unexplainable, I find it. Or am I exaggerating? Years ago, I thought I had seen the best side of love, but now I'm rewriting it. It feels so different; the peace I find in it now can't be compared to the joy a lender gets when their debtor pays up their debt. Again, I say, I hope I'm not exaggerating. Uncertainty happens, and this joy I feel can vanish like a bursted hot air balloon. Still, I hope it lasts and isn't just a fantasy for the moment. I lack spoken words to express my emotions, but give me a pen and paper, and I'll drown you in an ocean of love. I love you just as the uniformity of the four-letter word "LOVE" came together to give the word its meaning. Loving you is a habit, and the joy I get when I behold your sight is unmatched. Your smile sends a resounding hope of true love and a constant reminder of how handsome you look wearing that smile. Even the purest medicated glasses can't see ho...

My trust issues often get the better of me. Even small things can trigger my mind to wander, and before I know it, my head is spinning, and my heart is racing with anger. But then I realize, they didn't do anything wrong. It's just my past experiences playing tricks on my mind. I've come to understand that bad relationships can be a hard pill to swallow. It's not just limited to romantic relationships; it can be with friends or family members too. Sometimes, a past experience can leave a lasting impression, and even the slightest reminder can trigger a reaction. Having close female friends, like my peers do, seems like a wonderful experience. They get to do things together, hang out, party, and support each other. I've always wanted to have something like that, but for me, it's been a struggle. I recall a story about a female friend I had. What happened between us was a turning point for me. I realized I had to draw the line and prioritize my own emotional well-...

Have you ever experienced inner peace? Let me take you on a journey to discover it. Inner peace is a state where you feel complete, happy, and confident. You feel enough for yourself, even when you have little or nothing. You worry less or never about things that weighed you down before. Unfortunately, our society undervalues the importance of inner peace. We often confuse it with superficial happiness or smiling. But inner peace comes from within; it can't be found outside of yourself. Every day, we encounter people who carry negativity, bitterness, anger, and unforgiveness like a badge of honor. They seek to offload their emotions onto others, often recruiting unsuspecting victims. You know these people - they're the ones who walk around with a scowl on their face, looking for someone to devour. But here's the thing: you can't control how others behave, but you can control how you respond. When someone tries to dump their negativity on you, greet them with kindness an...

"People come into your life for different reasons, some for a season, others for a lifetime. Some bring positivity and growth, while others may leave without making a lasting impact. But then there are those who leave a mark, teaching you valuable lessons, exposing you to new experiences, and helping you discover your flaws and weaknesses. I've met many people in my life, each with their own unique story and purpose. Some have been a blessing, while others have been a challenge. But only a few have left a lasting impression, and I'm grateful for the ones who have added value to my life. They've taught me, guided me, and helped me grow into the person I am today. One person in particular has been a blessing in my life, and I'm still in awe of the positive impact they've had on me. They've shown me that true friendship is possible, and that having someone by your side who cares about you deeply is a treasure. At times, I wonder if it's too good to be true...

 Innocent me, fell into the world of imagination Gradually came reality Loving the feeling and getting relaxed Sense of satisfaction freely moving Echoes of love in the air As a lover of love, I find satisfaction Butterflies in my belly now and then  Now comes the thought of Happy ending Then it came, gazing at me like a fool I thought But that my reality there Purging that good feeling out of me Extracting everything without pity And it's done Reality faced me full time  Turning off the bright light I had Turning me to a baby, Who cries at the first breath of life cause it's painful but it's my reality I can't run from. So I dealt with it.   My reality it was, my happiness now. Just as a water wave moves freely without obstruction, so is my love for you moves. I guess I'm beginning to trust this feeling but the fear in me won't let be.  Fear of heartbreak keeps ringing, like an endless bell of remind.  Stares at me, reminding me how broken I was befor...

 "Bad relationships are indeed a hard pill to swallow, leaving me feeling alone in my head and wandering aimlessly. One minute I'm in love, and the next, I fear being left for someone else. Can I ever heal? Will this fear ever vanish? Can I overcome this trauma and insecurity? I question whether I truly know myself, feeling lost and uncertain. I don't wish this pain on anyone; the thoughts linger, and moments of emotional blackmail, gaslighting, and feelings of being run over haunt me. I've lost myself, my security, esteem, and self-respect in the name of love. Yet, I'm a free person, deserving of love and good company. I long for a partner who will love and accept me for who I am, without judgment or condition. I struggle to trust others, fearing judgment and exclusion. I crave a confidant, someone to run to when bothered, cry with, and share my all without fear of judgment. But is this possible? I wonder if I'll find such a man. My biggest fear is ending up w...