The Struggle is Real: Trust Issues and Its Weight

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My trust issues often get the better of me. Even small things can trigger my mind to wander, and before I know it, my head is spinning, and my heart is racing with anger. But then I realize, they didn't do anything wrong. It's just my past experiences playing tricks on my mind.



I've come to understand that bad relationships can be a hard pill to swallow. It's not just limited to romantic relationships; it can be with friends or family members too. Sometimes, a past experience can leave a lasting impression, and even the slightest reminder can trigger a reaction.

Having close female friends, like my peers do, seems like a wonderful experience. They get to do things together, hang out, party, and support each other. I've always wanted to have something like that, but for me, it's been a struggle.

I recall a story about a female friend I had. What happened between us was a turning point for me. I realized I had to draw the line and prioritize my own emotional well-being. It hurts when you go out of your way for someone, and they end up betraying your trust.



I've learned that it's essential to be cautious and protect myself from getting hurt again. It's not always easy, but it's necessary. I've come to accept that I'm my own best friend, and that's okay.



I hope that by sharing my story, I can help others who may be struggling with similar trust issues. Remember, it's okay to prioritize your own emotional well-being and take steps to protect yourself from getting hurt.

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